a 5-day date
June 28, 2006i’m supposed to be on my way to bohol today with my sis but an onset of several distractions forced us to postpone the trip and do it on some other (financially) convenient time.
i was hoping to watch some whales pa naman… sea turtles might show up, too. oh well.
call me delillah
anyone who’s familiar with the story of samson would know who she is.
the mistress. the infamous haircutter. the betrayer.
she was the reason samson weakened and lost his herculean strength.
a whole new twist to the waiting game
remember the waiting game i have been playing for more than a month now?
you know, the i’ll-be-moved-to-QA-but-don’t-know-when-it-will-happen waiting game?
yes, that game.
almost soaking in a (sickly) bittersweet feeling
June 25, 2006the whole idea is to achieve complete emotional detachment and to become objective. it’s my own simple rule. at least, that’s what i’m trying to abide by…
there are times when things start getting sour for me whenever i am put in a situation where emotions and mindgames complicate things.
okay, there are times when complicating things is fun… i am a master of complicating things. i can over-analyse and torture myself with my own mindgames and these are just fine ONLY IF I WANT THEM.
the after-3AM void
my sister accuses me of being a lousy storyteller. she told me several nights ago that i have no concept of plots at all.
hehehe. i can’t blame her. i even confuse myself whenever i have to recount an incident (fictional or otherwise) to someone else.
no ifs and buts
June 17, 2006when we’re outside looking in on other people’s concerns, we see the picture. wait. we think we see the picture.
maybe we really do. while the protagonist agonises over the situation, we (the second fiddles) are able to dissect the nitty-gritty of the problem without gushing too much emotion over it.
well, hindi rin siguro pero madalas ganun.
the point?
how’s the kid in me?
June 11, 2006| Your Inner Child Is Happy |
 You see life as simple, and simple is a very good thing.You’re cheerful and upbeat, taking everything as it comes. And you decide not to worry, even when things look bad. You figure there’s just so many great things to look forward to. |
what’s your dosha
| Your Dosha is Pitta |
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a chastisement
June 10, 2006fine. fine. fine.
after having one of our heart-to-heart talks (slathered with jest and unmalicious sibling ridicule), my sis openly corrected me on some things and pointed out that:
not these questions again, please!
a conversation with a new male teammate while taking our second break from training:
him: "so, how old are you?"
me: [i swore i’ll never lie about my age, so i didn’t.] "28"
him: "sa’n na boyfriend mo?"
[three seconds of silence]
me: "what boyfriend? hahaha. oh, you mean my non-existent boyfriend?"
my follow-up statement, "wala akong boyfriend."
him: "bakit naman? you broke up with him?"
ayos.
in fairness, he assumed i had one. harhar.
time for a personal assessment*
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Your Type is |
| Extroverted | Intuitive | Feeling | Judging |
| Strength of the preferences % | |||
| 1 | 38 | 38 | 11 |
* i just nabbed a copy of a career planning workshop booklet i found in our training room. harharhar. while the trainees were taking their online exam, i was busy "shopping" for goodies lying around the room. heeheehee. i now have a new blue pen and post-it pad. shhh!!!
oo
up dharma down
hindi mo lang alam naiisip kita
baka sakali lang maisip mo ako
hindi mo lang alam hanggang sa gabi
inaasam makita kang muli
nagtapos ang lahat sa di inaasahang
panahon at ngayon akoy iyong iniwan
luhaan, sugatan, di mapakinabangan
sana’y nagtanong ka lang kung di mo lang alam
sana’y nagtanong ka lang kung di mo lang alam
ako’y iyong nasaktan
baka sakaling lang maisip mo naman
hindi mo lang alam kay tagal na panahon
ako’y nandirito parin hanggang ngayon para sayo
lumipas ang ang araw na ubod ng saya
hindi parin nagbabago ang aking pagsinta
kung ako’y nagkasala patawad na sana
ang puso kong hangal, ngayon lang nagmahal
wooh, hindi mo lang alm akoy iyong nasaktan
o baka sakaling ngang maisip mo naman
puro siya na lang… sana’y ako naman
di mo lang alam ika’y minamasdan
sna’y iyong mamalayan
hindi mo lang alam hindi mo alam
kahit tayoy mgkaibigan lang
bumabalik lhat sa tuwing nakukulitan
baka sakali lang maisip mo naman
ako’y nandito lng hindi mo lang alam
matalino ka naman
kung ikaw at ako ay tunay na bigo
sa laro na ito ay dapat bang sumuko
sana’y di ka na lang pala aking nakilala
kung alam ko lang ako’y iyong masasaktan
narito, sana’y nakinig na lang ako sa nanay ko
di mo lang alam akoy iyong nasaktan
o baka sakaling lang maisip mo naman
puro siya na lang.. sana’y ako naman
di mo lang alam ika’y minamasdan
sana’y iyong mamalayan
hindi mo lang pala alam ohhh
malas mo
ikaw ang natipuhan ko
di mo lang alam ako’y iyong nasaktan
some kind of a eulogy
for a dearly departed friend and colleague…
GARRY CORPUZ
September 1, 1973 - June 6, 2006
more on what was, what lies ahead and the in-betweens
June 3, 2006imagine being a nine-year-old kid again and you’re told by your older sib that your parents will get you that brand new toy you’ve always wanted for your birthday.
your sib then cautions you, "don’t let on that you know this, alright?", and gives you a wink.
you go through the next days feeling excited. deep down, you know that what you feel is MORE than excitement. if you already knew what "elation" means at that age, you could have chosen that word.
then, your parents tell you that they will buy you that toy you want for your birthday but they can’t tell you on which birthday you’ll receive it. this year. no. maybe next year. wait. probably, three years from now.
"well, we just can’t tell for sure when you’ll get it. [5 seconds of silence] but you’ll get it. promise." then they both kiss you on your cheeks.
the summer that was, what lies ahead and everything in between
it has been 22 days since the last entry.
[great! it’s been that long since i last posted anything here and THAT’s my lousy intro… pfft!]
