10 G

Had it originally posted on my Friendster blog.. lagay ko lang din dito para may post. hehe

1 God.

The Force and The Source. I believe in something bigger and greater than myself and everything in this world or outside of it. I am nothing without my faith. I'm through doubting.
I am flawed and I may stumble a number of times and cause others pain but I know that my existence is not in vain.  I know that I am on the right track. Yun.

2 Golden Age.

The period of (perfect) innocence, peace and happiness.

My siblings and I were blessed with a great childhood despite not having both of our parents with us all the time while we were growing up.

Simple lang buhay noon: habulan, patintero, taguan…
Simple lang din ang takbo ng isip ko: assignments, exams, palabas sa tv…

Masarap balikan ang mga panahon na wala pa akong konsepto ng sakit o hinagpis. Dito nagmula ang "Ignorance is bliss" spiel ko… Hehe.

3 Gusto for Life.

Everyone of us goes through a suicidal phase at one point or another in our own lives. My "drama" started when I was in highschool. That was the time I became aware of a lot things in this world and I questioned everything around me. it came to a point that thinking about them became so unbearable I remember praying every night for death and worse, hating every morning when I find myself awake and still breathing. Ahk! That's teenage drama for you… [Good thing I was chickensh*t and guilt-ridden to actually take my own life. Haha.]

Mahabang panahon din yung dumaan bago ako humantong sa lagay ko ngayon na hayok sa buhay. Haha.. After discovering what my own life is for, na-appreciate ko ang buhay. Ganun lang yata yun eh. Hanapin mo ang nakalaan para sa iyo…

4 Girlfriends. Guyfriends. And what-have-you's..

They're one of the reasons why (I believe) that living is fun and worth it and why I have a lot of good memories to keep me laughing when I'm by myself…

I also believe that coincidence and accidental meetings are fictitious when it comes to the people I become friends with. Basta, cosmic. Haha.

5 Goal

Honestly, there's only one goal I am trying to aim for right now: becoming a better person. Ha! That's my "beauty pageant" answer… Seriously, it sounds like a load of crap pero yun talaga yun. It's the only goal (so far) that I'm willing to work on… I'm the only one I can change anyway.

6 Grief

They take on different forms, minsan iba-iba pa yung level of hurt that we feel, they are either caused by other people or (oftentimes) caused by ourselves.

It's not about the "why's", really. Knowing the reasons won't change the facts. Sometimes, we have to face the truth that we have questions that will never be answered. At meron ding mga tanong na pag nasagot, you'd wish you'd never learned the answers to. (Hell, my made-up reason sounded better than the "real thing"… haha..)

I found out that with hurt or grief, I don't have to deny that I feel it. Simple rule in dealing with it: Recognise it but don't wallow in it for too long. The longer you hold on to it, the harder to get off its grip… What matters most is how you'll go over and beyond it.

7 Giving in and Giving up.

Ah, complete and total surrender. It's unnerving, really and it's one of the things that I never thought I'd actually do… Pero ayun. Ganun.  Minsan yun lang pala ang kelangan. (Oo na. Oo na…)

8 Goodbyes

Minsan, gusto ko ako ang nagpapaalam at mauunang umalis. Minsan, mas comfortable ako na ako ang naghahatid at maiiwanan. Minsan naman, ayoko na yung makarinig ng "goodbye" pa kaya umaalis akong di nagsasabi. Less drama eh.

Isa lang naman ang significance ng salitang ito: yung possibility of seeing each other again. 'Yun 'yun. At least may chance… Kung wala na edi "nice to meet you" na lang and "thanks for the memories"… Ganun lang yun.

9 Guts

Iba-iba rin 'to but for me, it basically stands for forgetting my fears and my worries. Kumbaga, "SUGOD!!" and "BAHALA NA SI BATMAN" attitude. Ganun.

Besides, I like challenges. Although there are times that I rant about things I find difficult to do, deep down I enjoy thinking of how it can be conquered. Yes, I love the chase. I do. I do.

10 Great Love

Having someone to share a passionate relationship with would be great although iba na tingin ko dito ngayon. If I were given this list a year ago, I would have said that it's all about that kaso ngayon, hindi na. Yoko na mag-explain. Mahirap mag-type. Simply put, I want to reach that stage na hindi selfish yung pagmamahal ko. I'm getting there and yun talaga yun.

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Thanks, Karla!

If you want to have your own list, you have to comment here and ask me for it. Tapos I'll give you the letter…